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28 August, 2006Lake Dog
Oh man. Weekend.
Saturday Jimmy and I hung out most of the day. It was amazing. We walked Kyla at the park, went to the beach and fell asleep in the sand, ate snow cones and just had a fun time. I also cried about 20 times. I guess I didn’t really feel it until Saturday. I’m like Ms. Spontaneous Waterworks with the crying with no warning thing. It’s hard. I miss him. Kyla went INSANE when he came over to the house. Ugh, here I go with the tears welling up again.
Yesterday I went over to my moms and we went to church, Applebees and then headed over to Mount Trashmore where Kyla almost spontaneously combusted at the amount of geese and ducks in the vicinity. She’s usually really good about not pulling on her leash, but with duck smell and goose poop everywhere, she was ripping my arm out of the socket the entire time we were there. It was hot, too. At least she got to cool off in the lake a little bit.
See what I mean with the pulling? Driving me crazy. Back at mom’s house, dad grilled out steaks, I talked with mom for a while and then Kyla and I headed home. I thought the nights would be the hardest, and while they indeed suck, waking up in the morning is when I feel the worst. Even though we saw a lot of each other this weekend and it felt better than ever, it really hurt that we were better as separate entities than we were a few days ago when we were together. I don’t know what I’m supposed to make of that. I miss you.
Quick look at a cute dog before you start crying at work.
Comments
The dog-ex-boyfriend thing is really hard. It sets you off, I think, because for a lot of us dog=child. I remember that my older dog, Roxy, would go running to the front door at my old apartment every time she heard someone coming down the steps. She was waiting for my ex-boyfriend (of four years, no less), who had by then moved to Virginia. Depressing!
I think that you're handling yourself so, so well, and that you are both being super adult and reflective about this. It takes time and you'll certainly have a few "dark nights of the soul," but you'll also feel lighter, freer, more open to possibility. Good luck.
its not going to be instant that you get over this. its hard when you grow apart when what you really want is to be together.
not that i am an expert, but perhaps you need to spend some time not seeing him as a friend? it could be the difference between an open wound you keep picking at and one that scabs over.
*huge hugs*
Haha, I have similar pics of my little guy from this weekend: http://users.livejournal.com/_make_lemonade_/158969.html#cutid1
Best puppy in the world: Excellent line of defense against a broken heart.
Take care :)
Sorry it's so hard right now, but it will get better. If you feel like taking a holiday you could always come to Canada for a change of scenery! Would that be far enough? ;)
jonny
