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29 August, 2006Dealing
Hey internet, did I mention that I’m alone and it sucks? Crying at work is so professional, even if no one sees it. I’m totally not myself this week.
For instance, last night I couldn’t sleep and got the weird idea to make brownies because there was a box of brownie mix in the cabinet, and why not? Did I eat the whole pan like any self-respecting, broken-up-with fat kid would have?
No. I didn’t eat any. Hot brownies sat there and no one ate them. And this morning I brought them to work so they wouldn’t go to waste. I ate one after much insisting. It tasted like cardboard.
I feel like all the flavor has been sucked out of my existence. Did I mention how much I hate this?
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aww, sweetie- I wish there was something I could say or do to make this better or easier for you. Its normal to cry.
If you need someone, I am here for you.
And I am proud of you for not binging on the brownies after you made them. That is a pretty big deal, whether you realize it or not. *hugs*
Not eating the brownies is HUGE, good for you. Not sure whatI can say but I know you are trying to stay friends...maybe you should not see each other for a while?
::hugs::
need a trip to PA this weekend? i won't make it down there til like the end of the month!
i have a sofa bed, and lots of good times!
Oh honey, I feel your pain. I remember breaking up with this one fellow and I felt like I went color blind after it. Like all of the color was sucked out of my life. But you have time on your side. You'll never forget Jimmy but the pain will go away. Be gentle on yourself.
And you are my HERO for not eating those brownies. Seriously. That is a major major feat.
You're gonna be okay, I promise. Remember what you always say - it will end. It will. The pain and sadness will be a distant memory before you know it, even if it almost feels good to cling to it right now. Just ride the emotions as they come and don't deny yourself little chances to smile.
Here's your daily anecdote from me :)
You know I'm a serial dater (everyone knows I'm a serial dater), but every once in a while someone comes along whom I really genuinely care about. I've fallen in love before. And when it ends, the feeling that's left feels like it'll never go away. And I go to the bathroom and cry during my lunch break... and coffee break... and sometimes just for the hell of it.
What gives me the most comfort is thinking of the ways that person was good to me, or supported me, and how lucky I was to have them in my life, even for a short time.
It's fantastic that you and Jimmy are still going to be friends, and can enjoy each other's company. He sounds like a fantastic supporter of you.
I know it feels empty and tasteless because you're not with the only person you want to be with, and as much as all your friends tell you that they love you and how many hugs you get, the words are just coming out of the wrong person's mouth. The feeling doesn't feel like it'll go away, but it will. It'll be okay.
The friend thing takes time. It's like, "Scab? Peel it off!" over and over again. Not to get Dr. Phil on you, but a little distance is healthy and less painful. The human mind is really adept at survival (emotional survival, in this case), but space is often needed for the healing to take place.
It sucks crying at work. Sucks. And I know the cardboard food feeling, too. Heartbreak is the best diet. I'm surprised that Jenny Craig hasn't thought to arrange breakups.
Good luck.
I'm sorry you are having a tough week Amber. I'm thinking of you and sending a little prayer your way! :)
Amber, I am so sorry. It's okay to feel pain and to mourn your loss, it's healthy and it's natural.
and good for you not eating the brownies. Stay strong.
Breaking up is so hard even when it is under the best of terms, don't know what I can offer but I am just down the street if you need me.
Amber, I'm really sorry you're having such a hard time...breakups suck and that's all there is to it. We're thinking about you over here. Gooch sends lots and lots of really nasty sloppy puppy kisses your way.
aww amber. i've been there and it sucks. if we lived closer (and knew each other, maybe) i'd treat you to a mani/pedi to lift your spirits, if only a little.
as it is, when things are rough i always think of the latin phrase "post tenebras, lux" which means "after darkness, light" and it helps me get through. hope it helps.
focus on yourself and kyla, and do what you need to do - whether that's crying at work or baking brownies at two a.m. you'll get through it. *virtual hug*
man. i really don't know what to say.
i know i really dont know you that well, or at least a little bit when i was living there. but i know this has gotta be hard for the both of you.
things will work out the way they are supposed to.
sending good thoughts to you.
Even though the flavor has been sucked out of life right now... just remember that black and white TV was just as good as color (pre tivo... once tivo came into the picture, that bet is out the window).
(((HUGS)))
Hang in there lady, you'll get through this.

